I happen to be a person who questions everything..…….In childhood and pretty much throughout my entire life, ‘questioning all’ has been my motto and it has often gotten me in trouble. As a child, one of first things I really questioned was Sunday School and Religion. As a teen I was reprimanded and asked to be quiet in communicants class when I would ask the minister “Who is God?” “How do you know who God is?”

From early on, I have questioned ‘What is God like? Who is God?’ For me, nature feels like what God is. I choose to sit by a tree, watch the birds or clouds, feel the wind blow………….to me that is God rather than sitting in a church listening to someone tell me who/what God is.

Again I remind you, this is my story. I continuously go in and ask myself questions regarding this world I live in. As long as I listen to and believe what everyone else tells me to, I end up seeking their truth. I end up worried about being good enough for them and even for God……………..This stresses me out. I feel pain, and suffer a great deal because I am abandoning my own truth.

Developing an introspective way of life has helped me to be a much happier person. I question myself all the time. I question if this or that is true for me and I don’t worry (as much) about what others think; they are none of my business. I am much happier living this way.

Today I am grateful for the journey that has helped me realize, ‘when I listen to my mind and my thoughts, I begin to believe them, and then I get to experience them.’ Earlier it was often thoughts that caused pain. Today I experience joy.

If my thoughts are fearful……..anticipating what’s coming in the future, I feel pain. If I live in the past, I feel pain because it is done and over with………..I can’t do anything about it now. If I think others should be different; I suffer. So today I realize it is my own thoughts that cause me pain and suffering.

When I watch and change my stressful thoughts, I change my life from within. To me, this is connecting with my truth……which is my connection with God, All There Is. If I question my thinking, I find I do not have to be stressed. I choose to live in the moment……all there is. I am responsible for my thoughts. I can clean up my thoughts. To me, this is my service to God.